Thursday, February 19, 2004

In the words of Christina Aguilera..."they say if you love something, let it go..if it comes back to show you..that's how you know..."

GREG MADDUX IS BACK BABY!!...HE DOES LOVE US! The cubs signed Maddux yesterday. He was originally drafted by the Cubs in 1984 in the 2nd round. He left after the 1992 season. And now in 2004, he's back.

He is ranked 2nd among active pitchers in wins with 289, and has a career ERA of 2.89 (18 years), 4 Cy Young Awards, (his first was one with the Cubs), he had a 95-75 record with the Cubs, won a record 13 consecutive Gold Gloves, 34 Career Shutouts-103 Complete Games, 10-8 Playoff Record, Averages 153.6 Strikeouts per season, has not exceeded 50 walks since 1993.

Maddux will join the superb pitching roster including....Kerry Wood, Mark Prior, Carlos Zambrano, and Matt Clement.

I will go on the record and say..."This is the Cubs year baby".....this one...for real. I'll be at beautiful Wrigley on May 18th....i can't wait.

Tuesday, February 17, 2004

getting old sucks!!!
i know, i'm only 25...but you really feel old when you start working out again..and it always hurts.....and of course..everything effects everything...

a couple weeks ago..it was my ankle....my old college bball injury came back to haunt me as i started running harder and faster....my kankle swelled up daily..and i had to ice it every day..sometimes twice a day... (tony made me ice it all the time).....so that sucked..but i expected that....my poor ankle will never be normal....and it's permanently bruised from the blood that collected in it before i got it drained..........

but..on to my new injury.....my hip has hurt for about a week now...and now i'm to the point where i'm limping around.....it hurts so bad.....and i believe it is a direct effect of my ankle....cause when my ankle hurt..i still ran all the time...of course baby-ing my left leg.....thus, putting more force on my right leg.....thus hurting my right hip...it's the worst pain.......it's the muscle on the outside of my hip..and it shoots pain down my whole leg.....so....instead of going to the doctor..i looked online of course to diagnos myself. I've come the conclusion that i have Hip Bursitis: inflamation of the hip bursa.......translation: the worst pain ever......i'm supposed to ice it (so the exact opposite of the heat i have been putting on it..probably making it worse)...and rest it..and pop some pills......but here's what sucks..for once in my life..i'm addicted to working out...i love it...i go every day..i get up and do it first thing..then off to work....so, now that i'm all into it...i'm supposed to rest...well..i dont think i'm going to...maybe i'll take it easier..i'll have to.....

thanks for hearing my complaining.......but..i must add also..that before i looked online...i called my mom..cause mom's know everything...she of course told me to ice it and rest, and take aleve.......so now that my online dr. confirms it..mom....you were right..once again....you always are......

man..i'm gonna make my kids be in shape....while they are young and dont have the pains of adulthood...i'm gonna take them to the kiddie gym....and make them lift and crap..they will be little body builders...minus the oiled up skin and weird popping out veins......

man..i cant wait to turn 30!!!

Monday, February 16, 2004

change of scenery..not always a good thing.....
i usually spend my 'out-of-office-work-days" at my fav little cafe: chatte...it's usually quiet during the day..and they always know what i want to drink...decaf breve latte sugar-free caramel...
but today...i needed to go look at guitar books..so i stopped at borders...and decided to get online there and do some work....every table is full...mostly high school and college students who are "studying" on their day off from school.....and by "studying" i mean....talking and laughing at the top of their lungs, with open text books in front of them.....there are the random few who are really trying to get stuff done....they look up and give mean glares to the "loudies" every once in a while..but it makes no difference......

i realize as i sit here..how anal i am about pictures being straight on the wall.....there is a wall of artwork here in the cafe..and about 80% of them are crooked..that drives me nuts......i have the impulse to go straighten them all...which i have been known to do..even in other people's houses....of course..i only do it when they aren't looking..i dont want to make them feel bad...because of my obsessive compulsive disorder.....ocd baby....for real.

it's rainy today...i can't believe how much weather can effect mood.....of course i'm spoiled with the sunshine here, so on days when it gets cloudy and rains about 2 drops..i get all sad and reflective..in a weird "i'm-an-artist" way...you know....the "there's-no-real-reason-for-my-mood-i-just-blame-it-on-my-creativity"

i start giving my first guitar lesson today...i've been reading Guitar for Dummies here at Borders..preparing..for my lesson....i know i got about 2 good months to give this jr. high kid lessons...till his knowledge will surpass mine..... i'm not worried about today though..i'm just gonna meet the kid..and talk about basics of guitar...like what each string is...and how to tune it...and how to never let anyone who sucks at guitar hold your guitar...or they will ruin it.....

ok..my last thought for today....(or at least my last written thought..i'll probably actually think more..unfortunately).....i HAVE to watch the new reality show "Littlest Groom" tonight...i know Kristi and Jamie will also be tuned in....how can you pass this absudity up? nice title by the way.....
I think i'm going to have a reality show about reality shows....the dumbest one wins.....my show is called...."The Unreal Reality".....tune in....

Saturday, February 14, 2004

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

for those of you that have a valentine...hold him/her close today...cause you never know when you will find yourself 2000 miles away from them :(

I love you tony...this is our last valentines day apart.....

to my friend and family..i love you guys too...very much...i'm so blessed to have you in my life.

I don't think i've ever had a v-day in the 70s though.....it was mighty nice....

Wednesday, February 11, 2004

all you lcc people...remember hawiian hump day? wearing hawiian shirts on wednesday....dude i even made a special trip to the Pink Shutter and Mission Mart to buy a hawiian shirt.....

i'm in an extremely good mood today..which is crazy considering i got up at 7am..to get kids off to school (no, not the same as dropping the kids off at the pool)....this one really involved children..i'm living at our pastors house again while they are are out town..taking care of their 3 children...it's fun...good practice for mom-hood i guess.

my desk at work is a mess right now....it's funny how i function here...i work on at least 4 things at once...i get bored easy...so i have to switch b/w tasks....and you never know when your creativity wants to work on something else....

I'm excited..i'm gonna start teaching guitar lessons next week...i'm scared though...cause i think i have people fooled into thinking i acutally know what i'm doing....i'm the capo cheating queen...i dont really play bar chords....i cant even tell you what notes make up a G chord....o well.....if the student starts knowing more than me..that's when i'll stop teaching......they say to be an expert, you only have to know 5% more than the other person at any given topic....

that would make me an expert on....the cubs, the movie "dazed and confused", the slide whistle, and the moon :)

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

i like simple things.....

like pictures that capture a perfect moment in time...a face, a feeling, a love....

like a good melody that you can repeat over and over in your head..

like smiling when you are all alone cause you just thought of something or someone that makes you so happy

like that little noise your computer makes when you get an email..that's a happy noise

just random things that make me happy

Monday, February 02, 2004

the tears will not stop today.....2000 miles is a huge distance to be away from your soulmate.

(for all of you that dont want to hear me pour my heart out about the man i love...then you mght want to stop reading right now...cause it may get mushy)....consider yourself forewarned

Some days i'm strong...but many days..like today..i'm not....sometimes i'm so overwhelmed with emotion...like the emotion when you love someone so much you can't even explain it with words...like the words "i love you" will never give justice to how you really feel.....like the feeling that God has blessed you so much with that person that it almost seems 'too good to be true'....but you know it is....cause if it weren't true...you wouldn't be crying in realization that you cant see or touch him for another 98 days.....

i have no more words to really say....just that.....

I LOVE YOU TONY!!! SOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!

(for all of you that are going to make fun of me for this blog....go easy on me..i'm a bit emotional)